Maria Mena – Just Hold Me – Apparently Unaffected

Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if I liked rejection
I’d audition
And if I didn’t love you
You would know

And why can’t you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn’t matter
I wish I didn’t give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if I liked rejection
I’d audition
And if I didn’t love you
You would know

And why can’t you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can’t remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days

And why ….
Why can’t you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

This is my favourite song today, for two different reasons. I found this posted as a video in a blog I read, and the first 4 lines were like a punch to the stomach.

I have been worrying myself sick about Gray and why he wasn’t talking to me. Although this is a love song, our love is a different love, love different from that a boyfriend and girlfriend have. He’s my best friend and we have been such for the last 4 and a half years. And yet this last couple of weeks, at a time where I really needed some reassurance and a sign of his love, I felt that he was avoiding me, and that when we did talk, he was kind of annoyed by me.

Only in the end, this afternoon I talked to him about it and he was surprised and ever so lovely. I cried a little into my laptop as we spoke on MSN. I was so relieved. Gray I love you and I hope things never change! I’m sorry for being a paranoid over-reacting baby.

~ by orange on July 27, 2007.