Amy Winehouse – Wake up alone – Back to Black

It’s okay in the day I’m staying busy
Tied up enough so I don’t have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying
So just lately
When I catch myself I do a 180
I stay up clean the house
At least I’m not drinking
Run around just so I don’t have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content
That everyone gets
Just disappears soon as the sun sets

This face in my dreams seizes my guts
He floods me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone

If I was my heart
I’d rather be restless
The second I stop the sleep catches up and I’m breathless
This ache in my chest
As my day is done now
The dark covers me and I cannot run now
My blood running cold
I stand before him
It’s all I can do to assure him
When he comes to me
I drip for him tonight
Drowning in me we bathe under blue light

His face in my dreams seizes my guts
He floods me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone

Maybe in a few months I’ll read this and smile at my foolishness, because Melbourne will have been nothing like I imagined… I’ll still be waking up alone and dreaming of S.

It gets better. But I don’t even want to let him go most of the time… and this is why I am looking forward so much to Melbourne and to getting the best of my old life and the best of my new life and nothing of him left.

But you know what? This is actually a nice song… because… I used to feel that way. And I don’t, not anymore. I still obsess… but there were nights like this, endless months of nights like this. And it’s no longer the case.

~ by orange on July 21, 2007.